A Hard Breath: Pandemic Video Portraits in the Pacific Northwest

This highlight video has no sound -these are highlights of video portraits installed in the main lobby of the 4th and Montgomery building

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ABOUT THE ARTWORK

Susie J. Lee
A Hard Breath: Pandemic Video Portraits in the Pacific Northwest, 2020
Dimensions: 3 framed 55" monitors
Video
Vanport Building, First Floor Entrance Lobby, West Wall

A Moment in History Defined by the Breath

2020 will go down in history as an overwhelming moment connected by the breath: Covid-19, a global pandemic that ravages the lungs and circulation; George Floyd’s last words, “I can’t breathe,” igniting a worldwide racial reckoning; the wildfires that burned the Pacific coast; and a collective holding of our breath from the relentless stress of society shutting down over and over.  

These video portraits highlight incredible, generous individuals who have been the voices and leaders in their communities and have suffered the brunt of the suffering of this year -- Black, LatinX and Indigenous people, essential workers and a Covid survivor. All have weathered enormous stress in the past -- from extreme poverty, health crises, racism, and the ongoing “othering” by society -- and find strength within their communities and grounding in family and ancestral knowledge.  

During filming, there was solace in sharing a time of just breathing together and being aware of each breath. Many voiced the sentiment, “This is just another thing. We’ll survive this also.” For this moment within this historic moment, one could reflect and simply be, knowing that the next breath would come. 

 

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Photo credit: Alberta Poon

MANDELA MSANII  

I don’t trust this moment right now. Black people can’t trust white folks to keep their word. So I’m going to keep doing what I’ve been doing, and be with my people. Because to keep sane, to keep grounded, it matters what you let in your aura…I’m a mutha fuckin’ avatar.

NIKEISAH NEWTON

Now that I run my own shit, I get to work with who I want. I get to network and build the community I want to see more in life, BIPOC Women, Sex Workers and the LGBTQIA communities.

Photo credit: Alberta Poon

 

Photo credit: Alberta Poon

Shani Bagwell

People pay me to have smart ideas.

KAEL TAROG

I make sure to call patients early before their virtual appointments so that we can just talk about stuff. The isolation, especially among the elder patients, is real. And it makes my day when they are so happy to hear my voice.

Photo credit: Alberta Poon
Photo credit: Alberta Poon

NATALIE BALL

There is no accountability, no witnesses to rural violence, the everyday real, unpredictable violence, here. I felt safer at the Portland protests because it was like theater -- people had their parts to play and there were so many eyes on what was happening. It felt safer than when getting groceries or getting water from the springs, where the hatred against our people is explicit and explosive.

Passa Harrison

Question everything.

Photo credit: Alberta Poon
Photo credit: Alberta Poon

Ane Léon

When I first entered the U.S. school system, I saw how we were treated differently. My teachers were not as engaged with my learning in school like my Mexican teachers. I was placed in ESL with all the other brown kids, and they called it good. I felt excluded, and turned towards books and libraries to teach myself English, history, and science. I knew I was smart, and books always accepted me for who I was. I’ve learned more about everything from reading independently and community storytelling than participating in the public school system.

Titiana Drake

I appreciate that  COVID19 has presented  humanity with the opportunity to slow down – to uncouple our timelines from stock markets. Of course, the morbidity and mortality are unfathomably difficult both for individuals and collectively, but the immensity of this pandemic is causing a necessary change in the pace of life, a willingness to let our understanding of an issue grow and change with time. As Dr. Fauci has said, “You don’t make the timeline, the virus makes the timeline”. We owe it to those we are losing; to take the time we need to really reflect, learn and move forward better than how we entered into this.

Photo credit: Alberta Poon
Photo credit: Alberta Poon

MICHAEL KYLE

One of the things I’ve lost in the pandemic, is the faces of my passengers. I have to fight for a connection, when before a full face would say so much. Strange times...

CYNTHIA DICKMAN

On Tuesday Leslie called to tell me Lois had died. At first, I could not take in what she was saying. I had asked about Lois every time we talked and knew she was on a ventilator. How could this happen? Shortly afterward my nurse, Marya, came in, since Leslie was afraid the news of Lois’ death would be detrimental to my health. God provided me his loving presence in Marya. She wanted to console me as I quietly cried but was limited to touching my leg and my shoulder with gloved hand.

Photo credit: Alberta Poon
Photo credit: Alberta Poon

HELDÁY DE LA CRUZ

After the death of both my mother and my sweetheart within a single year, it was as if nothing mattered. They were two of the most important people in my life, and so I had to re-evaluate how I understood the preciousness of time and how I want to live my own life. It has been a struggle for so long and then came the personal darkness in the aftermath. Now there is a strange sense of joy as I continue to pull myself out of grief’s grip. The reminder that I’m here now, with a creative gift and deep determination to keep showing up for the people I love.

RaShaunda Brooks

After George Floyd, in my grief, I wanted only Blackness around me. We don’t talk enough about grief and make it normal. So we participated in a ceremony to open up the energy, move that energy, be witnesses to each other’s grief, and transition but still remember; it was a beautiful reminder we don’t have to carry the weight all by ourselves.

Vaughn Kimmons

I am here for the Blackness.

Photo credit: Alberta Poon